As a boy of six, I move with my parents to a small village with a close-knit community in the countryside. I experience a childhood of playing outside, freedom and adventure, but not carefree. I find it hard to connect in the village. The feeling of not belonging prevails. Difficult family dynamics reinforce the feeling of loneliness. At 17, I move to the city for my studies. I make friends and live more in anonymity. The feeling of loneliness gradually disappears and I seem to forget about village life.
I never thought I would experience it again. After 25 years of city life, I follow my parents' example and move with my family to a small rural village. Time may have aged me, but it soon turns out that my past traumas still affect me. Although I enjoy the peace, nature and freedom, I still find it hard to connect. The feeling of not belonging returns. I fear that history will repeat itself for my children.
I explore, with memories and feelings from the past. I seek answers to questions and a renewed acquaintance with my past. Can I manage to accept myself in relation to my original feelings and environment? Can I leave my past behind so that I can be an example to my children?
"In Between Worlds" is a compelling narrative exploring the theme of not belonging, a sentiment that resonates universally. This project delves into my childhood and the neighborhood I grew up in, juxtaposing these memories with the experience of moving to the countryside with my family. The contrast I experienced between city life and rural surroundings highlights a sense of disconnection and alienation, a feeling many can relate to when in unfamiliar environments.
The story speaks to the broader human experience of seeking a place in the world. It's a reflection on identity, belonging, and the search for connection in the ever-changing things of our lives. "In Between Worlds" is my personal journey that uncovers how my past and environment have intricately shaped my identity, offering insights into my deepest questions
